my papa told me to stay out of trouble
"when you've found your man make sure he's for real"
i've learned that nothing really lasts forever
i sleep with the scars i wear that won't heal
they won't heal

cos every time i seem to fall in love
crash! boom! bang
i find the heart but then i hit the wall
crash! boom! bang
that's the call that's the game and the pain stays the same

i'm walking down this empty road to nowhere
i pass by the houses and blocks i once knew
my mama told me not to mess with sorrow
but i always did and lord i still do
i'm still breaking the rules
i kick it up
i kick it down

cos every time i seem to fall in love
crash! boom! bang
i find the heart but then i hit the wall
crash! boom! bang
that's my real middle-name
it has always been the same
that's the call that's the game and the pain stays the same

i still feel the heat
slowly fallin' from the sky
and the taste of the kissing
shattered by rain
comin' tumblin' from behind
and the wild holy war
i kick it up
i kick it down

and every time i seem to fall in love
crash! boom! bang!
i find the roses dying on the floor
crash! boom! bang!
that's the call that's the game and the pain stays the same
that's my real middle-name
it has always been the same
oh yea oh yea oh yea uh-huh
been the same been the same
it has always been the same
 

Roxette, Crash! Boom! Bang
from the album Crash! Boom! Bang!- 1994

Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do

Tonight I wanna give it all to you
In the darkness
Theres so much I wanna do
And tonight I wanna lay it at your feet
cause girl, I was made for you
And girl, you were made for me

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I cant get enough of you baby
Can you get enough of me

Tonight I wanna see it in your eyes
Feel the magic
Theres something that drives me wild
And tonight were gonna make it all come true
cause girl, you were made for me
And girl I was made for you

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I cant get enough of you baby
Can you get enough of me

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I can give it all to you baby
Can you give it all to me

Oh, cant get enough, oh, oh
I cant get enough, oh, oh
I cant get enough
Yeah, ha

Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I cant get enough of you baby
Can you get enough of me

Oh, I was made, you were made
I cant get enough
No, I cant get enough

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I cant get enough of you baby
Can you get enough of me

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I can give it all to you baby

Kiss, i was made for lovin' you
from the album Dynasty- 1979

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

Ill fight, babe, Ill fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the wall someday
I will be there, I will be there

If wed go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I cant get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
Im loving you

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldnt be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If wed go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I cant get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If wed go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, Ive hurt your pride, and I know
What youve been through
You should give me a chance
This cant be the end
Im still loving you
Im still loving you, I need your love
Im still loving you

Scorpions, Still Loving you
from the album "Love at First Sting"-1984

If we could see tomorrow
What of your plans
No one can live in sorrow
Ask all your friends
Times that you took in stride
They're back in demand
I was the one who's washing
Blood off your hands

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

I know the things you wanted
They're not what you have
With all the people talkin'
It's drivin' you mad
If I was standin' by you
How would you feel
Knowing your love's decided
And all love is real

An don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

I thought I could live in your world
As years all went by
With all the voices I've heard
Something has died
And when you're in need of someone
My heart won't deny you
So many seem so lonely
With no one left to cry to baby

An don't you cry tonight
An don't you cry tonight
An don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

Don't Cry
from the album: Use Your Illusion-1991

lay it down
pull my heart to the ground
time's getting cold
now the leaves all turn hard and blue
and I know when I gaze to the sun
no place to hide
I got nowhere to run from you
away from you

hold me now girl
I don't know when
when we will ever meet again
that was then
baby, this is now
I try to get over you

losing you... things will never be the same
can you hear me call your name
if we changed it back again
things would never be

in your hand, babe
I don't understand
you've got the eyes of a child
but you hurt like a man
always do, always do

touch me now girl
I don't know when
when we will ever meet again
that was then
baby, this is now
time won't get over you

losing you... things will never be the same
can you hear me call your name
if we changed it back again
things would never be the same

Roxette

مهران رفت.
حوصله روضه خوانی و مرثیه سرایی ندارم. اینقدر این دنیا تلخ است که نوشتن از بی وفایی اش هم زیاد است.
سه شنبه ظهر بود که زنگ زدم به سارا. زنگ زدم که به مهران بگوید شدید سرما خورده ام و نمی توانم بروم روزنامه. صدای مضطرب سارا را که گفت:" مهران حالش خیلی بده، حمله قلبی کرده، اورژانس تو اتاقه، نمی گذارند بریم تو. احسان فکر نمی کنم بمونه..."
- چرا مزخرف میگی سارا؟!!!! اين حرفا چیه می زنی؟!!!!!
- نمی دونم احسان، فقط به بچه های روزنامه خبر بده...

و بقیه ماجرا که که هنوز هم باور کردنش سخت است، تلخ است...
این دو سه روز از شدت بدن درد و تب و لرز، از شدت شوکی که وارد شد، از شدت این ویروس آنفوآلانزایی که 10 روز است ولم نمی کند، یا خواب بودم، یا بیمارستان...
چیز بیشتری ندارم که بنویسم...
فقط خداحافظ مهران دوست داشتنی ما...خداحافظ...
تو رفتی، اما سارای تو هست. سارایی که از همان روز اول که دیدمش شخصیت محکم و قوی اش برایم تحسین برانگیز بود و هست. امیدوارم بتواند، سختی طاقت فرسای بی تو بودن را تحمل کند...

اين عکس را در بیمارستان شب آن روزی گرفتم که پایش را عمل کرده بود...

جز تو، كه مرا منعكس تواند كرد؟ من خود خويشتن را بس اندك مي بينم.

بي تو جز گستره يي بي كرانه نمي بينم
ميان گذشته و امروز.
از جدار آينه‌ي خويش گذشتن نتوانستم
مي بايست تا زنده‌گي را لغت به لغت فرا گيرم
راست از آن گونه كه لغت به لغت از يادش مي برند.

تو را دوست مي دارم براي خاطر فرزانه‌گي ات كه از آن من نيست
تو را به خاطر سلامت
به رغم همه آن چيزها كه به جز وهمي نيست دوست مي دارم
براي خاطر اين قلب جاوداني كه بازش نمي دارند
تو مي پنداري كه شكي، حال آنكه به جز دليل نيستي
تو همان آفتاب بزرگي كه در سر من بالا مي رود
بدان هنگام كه از خويشتن در اطمينانم.

پل الووار، ترجمه احمد شاملو

Through the fish eyed lens of tear stained eyes
I can barely define the shape of this moment in time
and far from flying high in clear blue skies
I'm spiralling down to the hole in the ground where I hide

If you negotiate the minefield in the drive
and beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
and if you make it past the shotgun in the hall
dial the combination open the priesthole
and if I'm in I'll tell you what's behind the wall
There's a kid who had a big hallucination
making love to girls in magazines
he wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith
could anybody love him
or is it just a crazy dream

And if I show you my dark side
will you still hold me tonight
and if I open my heart to you
and show you my weak side
what would you do
would you sell your story to rolling stone
would you take the children away
and leave me alone
and smile in reassurance
as you whisper down the phone
would you send me packing
or would you take me home

Thought I ought to bare my naked feelings
Thought I ought to tear the curtain down
I held the blade in trembling hands
prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
I never had the nerve to make the final cut

By Pink Floyd

دلم گرفته از اينکه آدما حرفمو نمی فهمن، از اون بدتر فکر می کنن می خوای اذيتشون کنی. هر کاری می کنی يه جای کارت ايراد داره و بدترين موضوع هم اينه که آدمایی که دوستشون داری باهات اين برخورد و می کنند. دلم گرفته از اينکه می بینم چقدر آدما واسه آدما زود يکنواخت می شند و همه چی يادشون میره...
ول کن بابا احسان، بی خيال، تا بوده همين بوده ديگه، انتظار ديگه ای ندارم، راستش ديگه عادت کردم...

خسته ام، خسته ام، خیلی خسته ام و فقط الان اين آهنگ فرهاد رو دوست دارم گوش کنم که داره می خونه:
" من دلم سخت گرفته است از اين مهمانخانه مهمان کُش روزش تاريک" ...